We admitted that mind-changing chemicals had caused at least part of our lives to become unmanageable.
When we admit that a problem exists in our lives and that nothing we can do will help, we are working the First Step.
The principles of Step One apply to all problems, not just that of drugs. The phrase “mind-changing chemicals” can be replaced with any problem area, for example: fear, anger, school, work, marriage, food, sex, money, or other people.
(excerpt from the PDAP White Book pg. 64)
What does that look like – “unmanageable”? Well, it can take as many different forms as there are people. There does seem to be a commonality that runs through most people struggling with this life challenge. Using the Big Book of AA – let’s take a look at just a few of the many ways unmanageability can impact our lives.
- Being restless, irritable, and discontented (page xxvi),
- Having trouble with personal relationships,
- Not being able to control our emotional natures,
- Being a prey to (or suffering from) misery and depression,
- Not being able to make a living (or a happy and successful life),
- Having feelings of uselessness,
- Being full of fear,
- Inability to be of real help to other people (page 52),
- Being like “the actor who wants to run the whole show” (pages 60-61),
- Being “driven by a hundred forms of fear, self-delusion, self-seeking, and self-pity” (page 62),
- Self-will run riot (page 62),
- Leading a double life (page 73),
- Living like a tornado running through the lives of others (page 82)
- Exhibiting selfish and inconsiderate habits.
Do these symptoms make us “bad” people? Of course not. They are an outward manifestation of inward turmoil. These behaviors are the byproduct of a life that has become unmanageable. Admitting we have a problem is the first step to recovery from that problem. No wonder they made it Step One.
There is hope. Every one of us is worthy of a life well lived. PDAP is here to help. Below is a link to meeting locations and times. Take that first step. You are worth it.